after ALL these years; Yep!
The past few weeks have been very challenging but I keep going. One step at a time. One day at a time. Praying for the best.
As I sit here today, I realize how much I have learned.
- trust is earned; not assumed
- i am not invincible
- praying from the knees is very emotional
- that “Joel” often knows exactly what I need to hear =)
- what it feels like to love someone more than life itself
- what it feels like to not only hurt those you love but also to be hurt by those that you love
- how priceless it is to have my daughter by my side at one of my darkest, most grim moments
- what ‘rock bottom’ feels like
- how comforting the book of Psalms can be
- what it really means to ‘pick up the pieces’
- saying I’m sorry doesn’t necessarily mean I’m wrong
- sometimes I really can’t make sense of a situation and that has to be ok
- that it’s ok to stare at my wrist “believe” and challenge what I see, say and hear
- it’s just as important to forgive as it is to ask for forgiveness
- that my famous words “everything happens for a reason” are sometimes difficult to swallow
- how important it is to live each day (and night) as if it’s my last
- what it means to go through the ‘thin’ of ‘thick and thin’.
And while a lot of things will never be the same, there’s a sense of a ‘new normal’. Many of the things that I did before simply don’t matter and have been replaced with new routines, new habits and most of all new appreciation, respect and meaning.
Happy Monday ya’all!
